Tuesday
06.30.09
I'm going out the weekend of July 11-12 to pick up Phoenix and bring him back home. SO EXCITED!
Monday
06.29.09
I've been in communication with a Shiba Inu breeder in Arizona. They have a puppy and they sent pictures, along with pictures of his parents and grandparents. I'm in love. I already feel like he's mine. I talked with the breeder today to see if they could go down in price and am waiting to hear back from them. I'm so anxious right now...checking my phone and e-mail about every ten minutes.
Here's a picture of him. I think I want to name him Phoenix...
Here's a picture of him. I think I want to name him Phoenix...
Thursday
06.25.09 P.S.
My sister e-mailed me to tell me about a dream she had last night...about me. It's funny!
"I have to tell you about my dream last night - I woke up this morning and laughed when I remembered it. You got a new job as a door-to-door salesperson selling screen door/window repair kits. You came to me asking if I wanted to buy one and I did b/c in my dream I needed to repair my screen on my sliding back door. I was really funny!"
"I have to tell you about my dream last night - I woke up this morning and laughed when I remembered it. You got a new job as a door-to-door salesperson selling screen door/window repair kits. You came to me asking if I wanted to buy one and I did b/c in my dream I needed to repair my screen on my sliding back door. I was really funny!"
Wednesday
06.24.09
http://psychcentral.com/addquiz.htm
Results of your Attention Deficit Disorder Quiz
You scored a total of 92
It is highly likely that you are presently suffering from adult attention deficit disorder, according to your responses on this self-report questionnaire. You should not take this as a diagnosis of any sort, or a recommendation for treatment. However, it would be advisable and likely beneficial for you to seek further diagnosis from a trained mental health professional immediately.
I like how they bolded "immediately". Maybe I should get my brain checked out.
Results of your Attention Deficit Disorder Quiz
You scored a total of 92
It is highly likely that you are presently suffering from adult attention deficit disorder, according to your responses on this self-report questionnaire. You should not take this as a diagnosis of any sort, or a recommendation for treatment. However, it would be advisable and likely beneficial for you to seek further diagnosis from a trained mental health professional immediately.
I like how they bolded "immediately". Maybe I should get my brain checked out.
Tuesday
06.23.09
Walking into work doesn't make me happy...but sometimes when I walk into my cube I get hit by a little ray of happiness. There's so many fun toys and pictures and colors in my cube that it's hard not to smile about it all.
My newest additions are a rainbow Koosh ball I bought yesterday for $5 from a coworker (they don't make them anymore!) and a little cactus dog (and it's sidekick) from CC:
My newest additions are a rainbow Koosh ball I bought yesterday for $5 from a coworker (they don't make them anymore!) and a little cactus dog (and it's sidekick) from CC:
Thursday
06.18.09
Growing up I had a very hard time focusing on one thing. My mind would be filled with an array of random thoughts, sounds, colors and daydreams. I had a pretty vivid imagination – things came alive in my head. I’d get bored staying in one place or subject for too long. I was never able to hold still for more than a couple minutes – I’d end up twirling a pen through my fingers, twitching my foot, curling a strand of hair around my finger, chewing gum, crossing and uncrossing my legs, etc. When I was in high school and random college classes, every bit of blank space on my notes were filled with doodles. There was so much energy and things going on in my head that needed to get out. I forgot names and things people would say almost as soon as it was out of their mouths, being replaced by some other thought that popped into my head. I always thought it was some funny phase that I’d grow out of…but nothing has changed.
Just last night I had a guitar lesson and halfway through the song I lost my place because my mind started to wander. We tried the song again and it took every ounce of concentration for me to make it through the entire song without losing focus. It’s always been a joke among my friends that I have ADD but I’m at the point where I’m pretty confident in saying I really, truly have it. I’ve gone this long without treating it, should I even look into taking something for it now? I have to say, I’m curious to see what it would be like to have a focused conversation with a person…or to have a day at work where I’m not bouncing back and forth from five different things at once…or to play a song all the way through and not get distracted and lose concentration…or sit in a meeting and not cover my notes with doodles and images spinning in my head…or to actually remember the names of people or the paragraph I just read in a book…or to be able to sit down and stay quiet and not feel anxious. I wonder what it would be like to feel smart…to feel composed…to feel focused. Maybe I’ll make an appointment…
Just last night I had a guitar lesson and halfway through the song I lost my place because my mind started to wander. We tried the song again and it took every ounce of concentration for me to make it through the entire song without losing focus. It’s always been a joke among my friends that I have ADD but I’m at the point where I’m pretty confident in saying I really, truly have it. I’ve gone this long without treating it, should I even look into taking something for it now? I have to say, I’m curious to see what it would be like to have a focused conversation with a person…or to have a day at work where I’m not bouncing back and forth from five different things at once…or to play a song all the way through and not get distracted and lose concentration…or sit in a meeting and not cover my notes with doodles and images spinning in my head…or to actually remember the names of people or the paragraph I just read in a book…or to be able to sit down and stay quiet and not feel anxious. I wonder what it would be like to feel smart…to feel composed…to feel focused. Maybe I’ll make an appointment…
Wednesday
05.17.09
When I finally get my place in the country I'll have to live next to a river so I can befriend a river otter. Look how cute and comical they are!
Sunday
05.14.09
I took a road trip up to Pismo Beach and back with Sara this weekend. It felt great to take in deep breaths of fresh air, be surrounded by wide-open spaces and huge skies, and laugh with my friend until our stomachs hurt. It never fails though...I'm tremendously blue today. It hit hard on the drive back home as soon as we got stuck in LA traffic. No more wide-open spaces. All day today I've felt like I can't breathe...like the city is pressing in on me.
I just don't understand it. Why can't I settle down and accept where God's put me? Why do places like this call out to me so strongly?
I just don't understand it. Why can't I settle down and accept where God's put me? Why do places like this call out to me so strongly?
Wednesday
05.10.09
Wednesday morning office happiness is:
Finding a cup of coffee, from my Uncle, on my desk when I first walk in
Listening to Eyes by Rouge Wave and wrapping my hands around a warm mug of peppermint tea
Sharing fun, random e-mails with CC and Linda
Walking past a window and seeing a thick blanket of grey clouds
Realizing I have a pretty awesome cube full of fun pictures, coloring books and a little bamboo plant
Finding peace in the fact God has me here, in this very specific place, at this very specific moment, for a very specific reason
On another note...I saw this single flower growing at my Moms -- around dead weeds and sidewalk. I thought the contrast was pretty neat (and so is the flower!) so I took a picture with my phone:
Finding a cup of coffee, from my Uncle, on my desk when I first walk in
Listening to Eyes by Rouge Wave and wrapping my hands around a warm mug of peppermint tea
Sharing fun, random e-mails with CC and Linda
Walking past a window and seeing a thick blanket of grey clouds
Realizing I have a pretty awesome cube full of fun pictures, coloring books and a little bamboo plant
Finding peace in the fact God has me here, in this very specific place, at this very specific moment, for a very specific reason
On another note...I saw this single flower growing at my Moms -- around dead weeds and sidewalk. I thought the contrast was pretty neat (and so is the flower!) so I took a picture with my phone:
06.03.09
Well, I'm 31 today. I actually kept forgetting my birthday this year. I think it's because last year I fretted so much that this year I did the complete opposite. Let me tell you, either way it still happens!
I woke up a little after 2 o'clock this morning to the sound of thunder. It started off in the distance but didn't take long before it seemed like lightning and thunder were striking down in my backyard. A flash of white would burst and a blink of an eye later came the boom of thunder. Car alarms went off and I could hear neighbors saying, "Wow!" I had my window open and laid in bed with this grin of awe and wonder on my face. It was a beautiful storm! I could even hear the rain start off in the distance and get louder and louder until it fell right over my house. The cool breeze drafted in and I could hear God telling me, "This year I will be in your life like this storm. Loud, big, bright, powerful and it's going to shake everything around you." WOW! What a way to bring in a new year!!!
My collection of crayon giraffes from my Refuge girls is complete. I got Lori's today. I think I'm going to frame them...they make me so happy:
I woke up a little after 2 o'clock this morning to the sound of thunder. It started off in the distance but didn't take long before it seemed like lightning and thunder were striking down in my backyard. A flash of white would burst and a blink of an eye later came the boom of thunder. Car alarms went off and I could hear neighbors saying, "Wow!" I had my window open and laid in bed with this grin of awe and wonder on my face. It was a beautiful storm! I could even hear the rain start off in the distance and get louder and louder until it fell right over my house. The cool breeze drafted in and I could hear God telling me, "This year I will be in your life like this storm. Loud, big, bright, powerful and it's going to shake everything around you." WOW! What a way to bring in a new year!!!
My collection of crayon giraffes from my Refuge girls is complete. I got Lori's today. I think I'm going to frame them...they make me so happy:
Monday
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